I'm bawling my eyes out, my heart is endlessly breaking I swear I don't even know what to say anymore, really.

I don't want to tell anyone because I'm not sure if it's true. But I think I'm suffering from depression. It's like, I can't sleep, I can't concentrate, I can't eat even during buka, I keep having headaches, my body aches for no reason, I'm withdrawing from everyone who was once so close to me. If this continues, I think I'll secretly go to the doctor. Honestly think there is something wrong with me.

I tear at even the slightest things. Even an "are you okay?", and I look away, secretly tearing and desperately in need of a hug. During classes and I suddenly tear and there's this lump in my throat like I'm about to cry. I really don't know what's wrong, but I know something is definitely not right.

Tonight, I'm going to pray. I can only seek solace from praying. Even if nothing gets better, praying restores hope in me, every single time without fail. I know behind all these, something's bound to be good. Insha Allah, everything will be okay. But for now, I don't know.